My New Obsession

WHY??

You promised to call/sms me whenever possible. Not possible meh? When you're showering? When she's showering? Toilet? I dunno. It doesn't take much time to send ONE sms does it? =(

I read and re-read and re-read and re-read and re-read your smses.


"You loved him the most and you still have feelings for him. And I'm not anything to you. Go if you want."


If you really wanna know, Chris is offering me the world on a platter. His world that is. If i say I wanna get married now i think he'll buy a ring and propose tmrw. Yup and that's much much more than what I can say for you.



Me: I'm so sad after i keep reading the msg (see above). HOW CAN HE SAY THAT? ='(
Melody: I think maybe he doesn't love you at all lor. If not he won't let go so easily. If he loves you as much as he claims then why can he let you go and not karen.
Me: =( =(
Melody: Wait for him to come back lor
Me: And then what?


You see! Even an outsider can hit the nail on the head about what and how I feel instantly. That I don't match up. That your actions and your words don't tally.

On the way back just now, I was contemplating whether to go surprise you at your place. I figured you'll prolly drop Karen off, go home shower then meet her again if necessary. I dunno. Am gonna buy Royce chocolates (though i dunno if you like chocs but well can give your family bah), print 1 sad pic of myself with PS I Miss You on it and leave it at your door which you will see when you come back. Then i'll be hiding in a corner and jump out to surprise you. Quite extra of me right? And i don't see what purpose it'll serve. It's been 24 hours since i asked you to leave me alone. I guess u really did.


Went to laser my face today but the laser was spoilt so rescheduled to tmrw. Did Spectra for my nose and chin though. This risky thing i'm doing to my face will set me back another 1000 bucks and i'm not even sure it helps. But oh well i've really wanted to do it for a long time. Another one of my obsessions.


And the next and longest one. My best buddy in the world. Kristy Quek. Finally got to talk to her in a very long time. Sister I'm really sorry bout your daddy and if there's anything I can do, please please let me know. U know i'll always be here for u. Guys come and go but you're always there. EVen though I might not see or even feel you there at times i KNOW you are and it makes all the difference really. Cannot tell you how much I love you and how sad I was when i thought u wanted to get on with your new life =(

Time to go disinfect my nose.

Edited to add: Thank god for auto-save!!