Came across this MV while on Youtube. Suits me to a T. Perfect.
我知 你想走 因愛得我未夠
明知 你覺得玩厭時候
萬樣借口
曾聽你 說我姊妹過分賣力
便是愛盡頭
這種愛 沒法接受
我知 沒了電 因你一向善變
明顯 我信得到愛情後便大過天
誰知你 懶去檢點
我像賣藝 賣盡我笑臉
原諒也徒然 我太犯賤
你未道別便愛多天
痛恨你這情人 非好情人
你閒來 出手勾引
如今教我驚震
被你熱吻是狂賣性感
夢中情人 極好品
我誤信
我靠真心改變緣份
我也真太笨 (就是被狂吻)
無能為力也苦吻(情人同樣變心)
已經 沒眼淚 戀愛非錯便對
明知 與你相戀多長命
亦未會娶 曾聽說
你那顆心愛定事業
現在有著誰 其實當玩具
偶爾玩累 再遇玩具便會想追
我讓我得到卻未到
令我更相信漫遊花都無芳草
我哭泣喝著醋
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Perfect Example
Of why i said u're always contradicting yourself.
"In a relationship I will always go to my gf. And i treat you as my gf."
So it means we're not in a relationship but you treat me like ur gf? But so then why do you not come to me or call or even sms and I have to do it? Especially when i leave your house sad.
Most of the time i'm not even upset. Irritated yes. Upset nope. But you keep insisting I am. If i'm not even bothered by the situation then you should be worried. So the more you insist the more upset I become. Then it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
It's impossible to talk to you. Simply cos you don't listen and you think you know. You assume you can second guess how i'd react. And you think whatever that u're doing is the best for us. For yourself maybe. For you and her probably. For me? No.
When you truly love someone (i give up saying 'if' in case i get pouinced for that again), you don't give up on that person. Which is why despite your many many failed attempts at resolving the situation. I still hung on. But you?
Every few days you'd tell me you want us to be together. Then couple of hours later you think we can't. Then we keep ding-donging like this. Now the last straw comes when i tell you i think we're incompatible and you tell me it's cos she's in the picture. Which kind of logic is that?
And instead of believing we can work things out, now, today you're telling me you agree. Who's leaving who with no choice? You keep saying you're mature. But i think in this whole situation, you're the most selfish, least committed and the majorly indecisive one. Even she knows what she wants and I don't doubt she's trying to maintain it. But you?
You keep screaming bout what you want. Are you acheiving it? Yes don't remind me. In steps right? So now when I say okie do it your way and your time, i'm being sacarstic. So...
I will just shut up.
"In a relationship I will always go to my gf. And i treat you as my gf."
So it means we're not in a relationship but you treat me like ur gf? But so then why do you not come to me or call or even sms and I have to do it? Especially when i leave your house sad.
Most of the time i'm not even upset. Irritated yes. Upset nope. But you keep insisting I am. If i'm not even bothered by the situation then you should be worried. So the more you insist the more upset I become. Then it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
It's impossible to talk to you. Simply cos you don't listen and you think you know. You assume you can second guess how i'd react. And you think whatever that u're doing is the best for us. For yourself maybe. For you and her probably. For me? No.
When you truly love someone (i give up saying 'if' in case i get pouinced for that again), you don't give up on that person. Which is why despite your many many failed attempts at resolving the situation. I still hung on. But you?
Every few days you'd tell me you want us to be together. Then couple of hours later you think we can't. Then we keep ding-donging like this. Now the last straw comes when i tell you i think we're incompatible and you tell me it's cos she's in the picture. Which kind of logic is that?
And instead of believing we can work things out, now, today you're telling me you agree. Who's leaving who with no choice? You keep saying you're mature. But i think in this whole situation, you're the most selfish, least committed and the majorly indecisive one. Even she knows what she wants and I don't doubt she's trying to maintain it. But you?
You keep screaming bout what you want. Are you acheiving it? Yes don't remind me. In steps right? So now when I say okie do it your way and your time, i'm being sacarstic. So...
I will just shut up.
Friday, March 28, 2008
You Went Back on Your Word.
What's new?
From now on... you're just another one of those SQ bastards.
你们都一样
From now on... you're just another one of those SQ bastards.
你们都一样
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Sleep Debt
I think i've been depriving myself of sleep. SO much so that i fell asleep at Revive just now! Goodness...
Haven't been sleeping well nor much these days. Miss the old days whereby I can just knock out for 16 hrs straight. Now whenever my hp rings I'll jump up and can't go back to sleep again.
After 14 hrs 20 mins of being B2
I've been spending a lot lately. A lot. On myself, Mommy, changing currency aka shopping etc. Just got new trainers and i HOPE it'll make me feel guilty enough to actually use them. =p Was sort of calculating my expenses with Mommy just now. I say sort of cos... I don't really dare add them all up. We got to excess of 2k and i stopped. *brrrrrr*
Hence I've decided to curb my spending from 1st April onwards. So in the meantime i better change all my money ready for my long trips. Wahahaha =p
My new nails straight out of NailMax. Well we changed the design of the roses a little. I love it!
Haven't been sleeping well nor much these days. Miss the old days whereby I can just knock out for 16 hrs straight. Now whenever my hp rings I'll jump up and can't go back to sleep again.
After 14 hrs 20 mins of being B2
I've been spending a lot lately. A lot. On myself, Mommy, changing currency aka shopping etc. Just got new trainers and i HOPE it'll make me feel guilty enough to actually use them. =p Was sort of calculating my expenses with Mommy just now. I say sort of cos... I don't really dare add them all up. We got to excess of 2k and i stopped. *brrrrrr*
Hence I've decided to curb my spending from 1st April onwards. So in the meantime i better change all my money ready for my long trips. Wahahaha =p
My new nails straight out of NailMax. Well we changed the design of the roses a little. I love it!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
THE Money-saving trip
This will go down in history as the shortest (5 day COP), the most boring, the least shopping and the most eating sq28 i've ever done!
First of all, we had to pax back on sq27, not even the direct 37. Secondly, we had to land on Easter and for some weird reason that even the locals cannot fathom, all the malls are closed. Yes!! The horror!!
So.. in the end I just ate.. and ate... and ate. Haha.. bought tons of titbits for the 14h15m + 4h05m flight back. Had beef noodles while on transit and i bought Doraemon's fave food for my crew. Delicious!
Was quite a nice trip actually. Apart from the disappointment. Plus i couldn't go Disney anyway cos from the crew room, the carpark was CRAWLING with cars cos it was spring break cum Easter.
As usual i'm B2 again on the long sector. And as usual (thank god!) I had a nice GS who helped me load meals and replenish cos as usual I was too engrossed in the cabin. Butbut i must complain bout my CS. He's... he just doesn't lift a finger at all! At all.
Suppser service i loaded 6 carts by myself, did all the ice-cream, C/T, everything! My poor B4 had to do the entire tray distribution herself. I only helped her with... 1 row. =p Super overloaded! But well breakfast service GS came down to help so yeah. For the first time i didn't have to change meals myself too. Wahahaha...
Although i've realised it pretty early on in life but it never fails to make me amazed at how guys are very willing to help.... more attractive people. I don't think only guys are guilty of this but girls as well? *chope* I don't think i'm attractive lah. So i think i'm lucky that I meet nice people.
At least i went ktv in Tao Yuan and i got to eat my shabu shabu. =p
First of all, we had to pax back on sq27, not even the direct 37. Secondly, we had to land on Easter and for some weird reason that even the locals cannot fathom, all the malls are closed. Yes!! The horror!!
So.. in the end I just ate.. and ate... and ate. Haha.. bought tons of titbits for the 14h15m + 4h05m flight back. Had beef noodles while on transit and i bought Doraemon's fave food for my crew. Delicious!
Was quite a nice trip actually. Apart from the disappointment. Plus i couldn't go Disney anyway cos from the crew room, the carpark was CRAWLING with cars cos it was spring break cum Easter.
As usual i'm B2 again on the long sector. And as usual (thank god!) I had a nice GS who helped me load meals and replenish cos as usual I was too engrossed in the cabin. Butbut i must complain bout my CS. He's... he just doesn't lift a finger at all! At all.
Suppser service i loaded 6 carts by myself, did all the ice-cream, C/T, everything! My poor B4 had to do the entire tray distribution herself. I only helped her with... 1 row. =p Super overloaded! But well breakfast service GS came down to help so yeah. For the first time i didn't have to change meals myself too. Wahahaha...
Although i've realised it pretty early on in life but it never fails to make me amazed at how guys are very willing to help.... more attractive people. I don't think only guys are guilty of this but girls as well? *chope* I don't think i'm attractive lah. So i think i'm lucky that I meet nice people.
At least i went ktv in Tao Yuan and i got to eat my shabu shabu. =p
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Awakening
I told u your promises are not reliable anymore. U've just proven me right again. U always have 1001 EXCUSES.
And as always.. even though you refuse to admit it... I always pale in comparison with her in terms of importance. U're always so much more willing to hurt me.
I accept it.
Anyway.. do you guys realise how difficult it is to get drunk when you want to.... very much? We just went ktv. It's 5.15am now and me and my gs shared 4 jugs of Taiwan beer. 4 freaking jugs and i'm still not drunk. I think i went to the toilet like more than 6 times. We're gonna shower and continue.
Deep down i knew you couldn't do it. Except that you kept saying you could and would. Maybe it's the best this way.
Somehow i sang really well tonight. Dunno why. Maybe it's the beer lol. I need to shower n go for round 2 at the gs's room le. I just feel... numb. Maybe it's all for the best. I relly really hope so. When i saw the sms i was so sad. My gs consoled me jokingly w/o knowing the true course. That he hit the nail on the head.
I.... wont change away the ADL. U can if u want to. I'll just take it that i don't know you cos... in reality... i don't think i ever did anyway..
And as always.. even though you refuse to admit it... I always pale in comparison with her in terms of importance. U're always so much more willing to hurt me.
I accept it.
Anyway.. do you guys realise how difficult it is to get drunk when you want to.... very much? We just went ktv. It's 5.15am now and me and my gs shared 4 jugs of Taiwan beer. 4 freaking jugs and i'm still not drunk. I think i went to the toilet like more than 6 times. We're gonna shower and continue.
Deep down i knew you couldn't do it. Except that you kept saying you could and would. Maybe it's the best this way.
Somehow i sang really well tonight. Dunno why. Maybe it's the beer lol. I need to shower n go for round 2 at the gs's room le. I just feel... numb. Maybe it's all for the best. I relly really hope so. When i saw the sms i was so sad. My gs consoled me jokingly w/o knowing the true course. That he hit the nail on the head.
I.... wont change away the ADL. U can if u want to. I'll just take it that i don't know you cos... in reality... i don't think i ever did anyway..
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Effort
Lately this word keeps popping into my mind a lot.
U know how since young, our parents, teachers, elders always used to say that well even if u failed, at least u tried your best? When i was younger i used to go like.. Precisely cos i tried my best and i still didn't get/win/complete it, it sucks even more.
And from then on.. I guess I never did try hard enough. Maybe i never had to. I'm lucky in that sense. For almost my entire life I always had the right people helping me at the right time. Peope that kept me out of trouble, people that helped me when I was in trouble. Never had to work to keep myself through school or things like that which made some of my friends the nice, humble people they are today.
And there's my job. It isn't rocket science. You know how seniors like to say no one is a born stewardess. I agree in that some characters are not suitable for the job but i maintain that anyone can do it. Just like you can train a monkey to fly a plane. All it takes is... effort.
Having said that.. Well you can't expect a miracle at times. Can't think of any offhand example but y6ou know what i mean. And some other times.. the results are not always instant. The rewards not gratifying enough. It might be too little and too late.
In fact I'm amazed at how I can treat you like dirt now and you just keep coming back. That would have never happened. And i'm beginning to see you in a new light. But i'm happy for you. Cos u're finally... putting in effort. And i still believe that ultimately... whether it's me or another person.. i'm still glad... that you did. =0)
On another note.. what i put on my blog seems depressing isn't it? But.. i like putting it down in words before forgetting bout them. Becos i do. And precisely becos i always forget bout how badly I've been treated, it makes sense to blog about it and not get cheated again. So i don't seem guillible right aiai? Hahaha...
U know how since young, our parents, teachers, elders always used to say that well even if u failed, at least u tried your best? When i was younger i used to go like.. Precisely cos i tried my best and i still didn't get/win/complete it, it sucks even more.
And from then on.. I guess I never did try hard enough. Maybe i never had to. I'm lucky in that sense. For almost my entire life I always had the right people helping me at the right time. Peope that kept me out of trouble, people that helped me when I was in trouble. Never had to work to keep myself through school or things like that which made some of my friends the nice, humble people they are today.
And there's my job. It isn't rocket science. You know how seniors like to say no one is a born stewardess. I agree in that some characters are not suitable for the job but i maintain that anyone can do it. Just like you can train a monkey to fly a plane. All it takes is... effort.
Having said that.. Well you can't expect a miracle at times. Can't think of any offhand example but y6ou know what i mean. And some other times.. the results are not always instant. The rewards not gratifying enough. It might be too little and too late.
In fact I'm amazed at how I can treat you like dirt now and you just keep coming back. That would have never happened. And i'm beginning to see you in a new light. But i'm happy for you. Cos u're finally... putting in effort. And i still believe that ultimately... whether it's me or another person.. i'm still glad... that you did. =0)
On another note.. what i put on my blog seems depressing isn't it? But.. i like putting it down in words before forgetting bout them. Becos i do. And precisely becos i always forget bout how badly I've been treated, it makes sense to blog about it and not get cheated again. So i don't seem guillible right aiai? Hahaha...
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Luke
Yup the darling of my life. He's soooooooooo freakingly cute and lovely he NEVER fails to put a smile on my face. I miss that little monkey running head-on to me and calling Tutu-auntie.
Will be some time before i get to see him again though. Sigh.. I know i can always go visit but.. a bit awkward bah.
This is funnie! He went to Hanoi and fell in love with these purple sparkly slip-ons. And then when i was painting my nails for flight with Ling's polishes he came and wanted a purple one. So i did his big toe. He was so fascinated. Mike almost went crazy haha. He said it's insult on injury! I think he's gonna get shipped off to Outward Bound as soon as humanly possible. =o)
Monkey on the swing. He looks like he's having fun but he gets scared if you swing him too high. Hehe.. We like to see his furtive looks whenever he's scared but too proud to admit it.
Love you monkey. Really hope to see you soon. Am gonna start buying you a truckload of pressies for your birthday! =o)
Will be some time before i get to see him again though. Sigh.. I know i can always go visit but.. a bit awkward bah.
This is funnie! He went to Hanoi and fell in love with these purple sparkly slip-ons. And then when i was painting my nails for flight with Ling's polishes he came and wanted a purple one. So i did his big toe. He was so fascinated. Mike almost went crazy haha. He said it's insult on injury! I think he's gonna get shipped off to Outward Bound as soon as humanly possible. =o)
Monkey on the swing. He looks like he's having fun but he gets scared if you swing him too high. Hehe.. We like to see his furtive looks whenever he's scared but too proud to admit it.
Love you monkey. Really hope to see you soon. Am gonna start buying you a truckload of pressies for your birthday! =o)
Friday, March 14, 2008
傻瓜
其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜
Liar Liar Pants on Fire
~hermdee Feb 26, 2008, 9:36:19 AM
Orlallalala... i love you baby.
1) i cried the whole night, didn't sleep, landed 11pm, showered and still went to look for u bout 2am cos u said u have sthg to say.
2) u didn't say anything of consequence, nothing new to me. I left and went home again after 1/2 hr.
3) U wrote this before your HKG turn. And you still told me you almost didn't wake up in time.
3) U said u haven't been telling her u love her for quite a while.
4) U promised you won't call her baby anymore cos that's what u call me.
5) U LIED.
Orlallalala... i love you baby.
1) i cried the whole night, didn't sleep, landed 11pm, showered and still went to look for u bout 2am cos u said u have sthg to say.
2) u didn't say anything of consequence, nothing new to me. I left and went home again after 1/2 hr.
3) U wrote this before your HKG turn. And you still told me you almost didn't wake up in time.
3) U said u haven't been telling her u love her for quite a while.
4) U promised you won't call her baby anymore cos that's what u call me.
5) U LIED.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
其实还爱你
我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
Taipei
Am rotting in the hotel room now. Standby Day 1. Christy was supposed to bring me out but she cancelled cos she has other things to do. So i slept the whole day. Really whole day. Think i just made up for my lack of sleep for this entire trip.
Sometimes i wonder... How does something die off before it even starts? How do you resolve differences in timings in a relationship? Joon intro this fss Lina to me. We were doing nails (yes even in taipei. don't laugh.) and she was saying she's an early bird but the bf sleeps till late afternoon always. Then... in the meantime what does she do?
Does physical time together really mean a lot? How out your relationship? Have u ever had a long distance one? I remember in the past... esp in Dubai.. my Korean buddy used to say that if her guy is not around then there's no point them being tog. At that time i didn't agree but slowly I saw what she meant.
Nobody believes that I like having my bf around. Haha don't laugh. I do you know. Just not to the extent that I can't meet my friends or do my own stuff. But.. whenever I wake up i will naturally think bout what he's doing. So does that make me clingy?
My LS on this flight is an incredibly nice person. Super patient, considerate, humble and very kind-hearted! And he reminds me of Jeremy haha. I should take a pic and show u aiai. Same height, facial features and same pattern!! And i got to know that my CSS's ex husand was my OBS instructor. So coincidental cos we were quite close after my course for a while. I remember seeing his wife's pic but it never really registered.
Actually.. i'm tired. 11 days is really long. But i enjoyed myself and i'm dreading to go home. Cos... i think too much. I'm too impulsive. I do things i shouldn't and regret afterwards. At least when i'm physically away i can't do anything. When my hp doesn't work in LAX i can kid myself into believing u couldnt contact me. Instead of you wouldn't... just like now.
I submitted the request to Control. No reply yet. In fact the first time i typed the email i accidentally closed the entire thing. So i had to do it at a later time again. Was wondering if i should. Well.. if it's approved I will just go about it as per normal. Since i already said.. that you're nothing like the person i thought i knew.
Time to shower and wash away negative thoughts.
Sometimes i wonder... How does something die off before it even starts? How do you resolve differences in timings in a relationship? Joon intro this fss Lina to me. We were doing nails (yes even in taipei. don't laugh.) and she was saying she's an early bird but the bf sleeps till late afternoon always. Then... in the meantime what does she do?
Does physical time together really mean a lot? How out your relationship? Have u ever had a long distance one? I remember in the past... esp in Dubai.. my Korean buddy used to say that if her guy is not around then there's no point them being tog. At that time i didn't agree but slowly I saw what she meant.
Nobody believes that I like having my bf around. Haha don't laugh. I do you know. Just not to the extent that I can't meet my friends or do my own stuff. But.. whenever I wake up i will naturally think bout what he's doing. So does that make me clingy?
My LS on this flight is an incredibly nice person. Super patient, considerate, humble and very kind-hearted! And he reminds me of Jeremy haha. I should take a pic and show u aiai. Same height, facial features and same pattern!! And i got to know that my CSS's ex husand was my OBS instructor. So coincidental cos we were quite close after my course for a while. I remember seeing his wife's pic but it never really registered.
Actually.. i'm tired. 11 days is really long. But i enjoyed myself and i'm dreading to go home. Cos... i think too much. I'm too impulsive. I do things i shouldn't and regret afterwards. At least when i'm physically away i can't do anything. When my hp doesn't work in LAX i can kid myself into believing u couldnt contact me. Instead of you wouldn't... just like now.
I submitted the request to Control. No reply yet. In fact the first time i typed the email i accidentally closed the entire thing. So i had to do it at a later time again. Was wondering if i should. Well.. if it's approved I will just go about it as per normal. Since i already said.. that you're nothing like the person i thought i knew.
Time to shower and wash away negative thoughts.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
I Shouldn't...
Woke up bout 4 hrs ago and couldn't sleep anymore. Almost finishing My Best Friend's Girl. Just felt an overwhelming wave of emotions.
Somewhere, at some point over the past few years, I decided that I had hurt enough. That i deserve to be happy. That i would make myself my priority cos if i don't take care of myself no one else would. No one else had anyway.
I didn't care that I was a third party. It was the guy's choice to cheat and it's his life. I was always the guilt-free one, not having any committments. Like Carrie said in SATC, some women are like wild horses. They're born to race freely until they find someone, that one to run beside them.
I believed that.
But there was always this nagging thought at the back of my mind. It's not just about me. It's always about that innocent other person who don't deserve this kinda treatment. Just like i once didn't deserve it.
I stopped thinking bout morals and doing the right thing simply cos i whacked the ball into the other court. It wasn't my decision to make. In a very selish way, I can be morally upright and make myself miserable. Or push the decision to other person and be happy in the meantime.
I wanted to be happy. I still do. But it's also why I have all these emotional roller-coasters every time. It's always short-lived, dramatic and unpredictable. Sometimes i even wonder if i'm addicted to it.
Cos.. normality takes effort. Stability requires commitment. Dependability needs discipline. You could never walk into a club and decide that tonight you crave some attention and a need to be desired. You'll still feel it but you can't act upon it. If I were my friend, I'd jump in now and say you prolly don't love your guy enough.
I used to think that love in itself is enough. If you love someone, you're accomodating, considerate, reasonable, forgiving and a whole lot more. But it doesn't work that way. Maybe it does. Maybe I just didn't have the right situations.
I don't know.
I don't know why is it my bfs always feel insecure. I don't know what else to do to make them feel important. I don't know how to overcome the restlessness i always feel after a while. People always say that's prolly cos you're not ready to settle down. How do you know when you are?
I'm tired of always proving myself. Proving that i love you. That i won't leave you no matter what. That i'm willing to change for you. Not to your whims and fancies. But so that we can build a life together. And yet the guy just throws everything i've done out of the window. It hurts like mad everytime.
Sister i remember you used to say i'm tee-gong-kia. but in this aspect... this thing that bothers me the most unfortunately, Luck has never been on my side.
Coming back to what prompted this. I think I should stop. I shouldn't have. No one deserves this no matter how evil they are. But damningly.. All mistakes start out so beautiful it's hard to tear yourself away. Isn't it? Until you realise... Yep... it's a mistake.
Somewhere, at some point over the past few years, I decided that I had hurt enough. That i deserve to be happy. That i would make myself my priority cos if i don't take care of myself no one else would. No one else had anyway.
I didn't care that I was a third party. It was the guy's choice to cheat and it's his life. I was always the guilt-free one, not having any committments. Like Carrie said in SATC, some women are like wild horses. They're born to race freely until they find someone, that one to run beside them.
I believed that.
But there was always this nagging thought at the back of my mind. It's not just about me. It's always about that innocent other person who don't deserve this kinda treatment. Just like i once didn't deserve it.
I stopped thinking bout morals and doing the right thing simply cos i whacked the ball into the other court. It wasn't my decision to make. In a very selish way, I can be morally upright and make myself miserable. Or push the decision to other person and be happy in the meantime.
I wanted to be happy. I still do. But it's also why I have all these emotional roller-coasters every time. It's always short-lived, dramatic and unpredictable. Sometimes i even wonder if i'm addicted to it.
Cos.. normality takes effort. Stability requires commitment. Dependability needs discipline. You could never walk into a club and decide that tonight you crave some attention and a need to be desired. You'll still feel it but you can't act upon it. If I were my friend, I'd jump in now and say you prolly don't love your guy enough.
I used to think that love in itself is enough. If you love someone, you're accomodating, considerate, reasonable, forgiving and a whole lot more. But it doesn't work that way. Maybe it does. Maybe I just didn't have the right situations.
I don't know.
I don't know why is it my bfs always feel insecure. I don't know what else to do to make them feel important. I don't know how to overcome the restlessness i always feel after a while. People always say that's prolly cos you're not ready to settle down. How do you know when you are?
I'm tired of always proving myself. Proving that i love you. That i won't leave you no matter what. That i'm willing to change for you. Not to your whims and fancies. But so that we can build a life together. And yet the guy just throws everything i've done out of the window. It hurts like mad everytime.
Sister i remember you used to say i'm tee-gong-kia. but in this aspect... this thing that bothers me the most unfortunately, Luck has never been on my side.
Coming back to what prompted this. I think I should stop. I shouldn't have. No one deserves this no matter how evil they are. But damningly.. All mistakes start out so beautiful it's hard to tear yourself away. Isn't it? Until you realise... Yep... it's a mistake.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Arrggghhh
Can't upload the damn song.
Sigh.. Go shower again and try to sleep.
I wonder...
Edited to add: Blogger is crazy!! I had 3 of the same posts while it keeps saying posts can't be published. And i couldn't get the song on the page element. Sigh.. Had such a hard time deleting too! Should try a new one soon...
Sigh.. Go shower again and try to sleep.
I wonder...
Edited to add: Blogger is crazy!! I had 3 of the same posts while it keeps saying posts can't be published. And i couldn't get the song on the page element. Sigh.. Had such a hard time deleting too! Should try a new one soon...
給未來的自己
站在狂风的天台一望无际
这一座孤寂的城市
在天空与高楼交接的尽头
谁追寻空旷的自由
阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我
隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠
川流不息的人游荡在街头
谁能听见谁的寂寞
找一个人惶惶相惜
找一颗心心心相印
在这个宇宙我是独一无二
没人能取代
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强
我很坦荡
夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海
多少人多少种无奈
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害
一觉醒来还有期待
我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦
给未来的自己
一天一天一天推翻一天
坚持的信仰
我会记住自己今天的模样
有一个人惶惶相惜
有一颗心心心相印
抛开过去我想认真去追寻
未来的自己
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强
我很坦荡
我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦
给未来的自己
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强
我很坦荡
未来的你
会懂我的疯狂
这一座孤寂的城市
在天空与高楼交接的尽头
谁追寻空旷的自由
阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我
隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠
川流不息的人游荡在街头
谁能听见谁的寂寞
找一个人惶惶相惜
找一颗心心心相印
在这个宇宙我是独一无二
没人能取代
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强
我很坦荡
夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海
多少人多少种无奈
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害
一觉醒来还有期待
我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦
给未来的自己
一天一天一天推翻一天
坚持的信仰
我会记住自己今天的模样
有一个人惶惶相惜
有一颗心心心相印
抛开过去我想认真去追寻
未来的自己
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强
我很坦荡
我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦
给未来的自己
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强
我很坦荡
未来的你
会懂我的疯狂
4 Days Down. 7 More To Go
Bout 2am in LAX now. Am so tired I just crashed! B3 for 2 sectors and i'm B2 on the longest n heaviest sector back to TPE. Does he hate me or what???
Sigh okie I know he doesn't have much of a choice also. Luckily my CSS is quite nice. I never realise her staff no is quite junior for her rank until Joon pointed out. Well you know i never cared bout such stuff.
Anyway have to decide between Adventure Land and shopping tmrw. Ah sigh.. I heard we're moving out of this hotel by June so I gotta go to Disney sometime before we move! Maybe in a way I'm still holding on to the hope that he'll fulfil his promise and go with me.
Yup we're Cold War-ing again. Happens everytime he goes on flt with her. Actually it's just a stoopid thing this time. I just didn't like it that he didn't consider my feelings and i guess he thinks i'm too stubborn.
And my hp's not working again! Grrrrr... Should I get a new one? Sigh.. Or maybe I should just get a cheap one that works just for States? =p Anyway i can't msg him cos he's with her anyway. Am just curious if he'll fulfil his promise n msg me. I'm guessing he'll use the your-hp-is-not-working-anyway excuse. =(
Oh well i got my wanton mee pic. And i just realised my 'post image' button COMPLETELY disappeared.
Arrrrrrrggghhhhh
Sigh okie I know he doesn't have much of a choice also. Luckily my CSS is quite nice. I never realise her staff no is quite junior for her rank until Joon pointed out. Well you know i never cared bout such stuff.
Anyway have to decide between Adventure Land and shopping tmrw. Ah sigh.. I heard we're moving out of this hotel by June so I gotta go to Disney sometime before we move! Maybe in a way I'm still holding on to the hope that he'll fulfil his promise and go with me.
Yup we're Cold War-ing again. Happens everytime he goes on flt with her. Actually it's just a stoopid thing this time. I just didn't like it that he didn't consider my feelings and i guess he thinks i'm too stubborn.
And my hp's not working again! Grrrrr... Should I get a new one? Sigh.. Or maybe I should just get a cheap one that works just for States? =p Anyway i can't msg him cos he's with her anyway. Am just curious if he'll fulfil his promise n msg me. I'm guessing he'll use the your-hp-is-not-working-anyway excuse. =(
Oh well i got my wanton mee pic. And i just realised my 'post image' button COMPLETELY disappeared.
Arrrrrrrggghhhhh
Monday, March 3, 2008
Life
Shyan sent me this blog address before he left actually and I was rushing out just then and I totally forgot bout it. Went to take a look and I really dunno what to make of it. The address is http://tania.movielol.org/ Well am i actually abating her attempt since I directed you to it?
When I was younger i used to muse bout suicide with Alvin. Cos back then he was always a little depressed. And then it got worse in NS. I've always felt that suicide is for cowards. If you have the courage to kill yourself, hurt like hell and all, then why not do something about it?
I especially pity those who're left behind. I haven't figured if I believe in afterlife but the ones who'll have to bear the brunt after you're long gone are the innocent ones. Those who loved you the most. Do they deserve it? As wilful as I am, having always said it's MY life, I do acknowledge that my life is intertwined with those I love and who loves me.
Which is why even during that period... I thought about suicide but I know i'll never do it. I won't be able to forgive myself if i did. Well that's assuming there's afterlife and all. But sometimes during that period.. I'd wonder who'd miss me after I'm gone besides my family. Yes friends might mourn your death for a while, lovers might think of you sometimes but everyone moves on isn't it?
I admit it's a cliche but time dulls the pain. I don't believe it heals. Okie maybe it does but it leaves a scar. And if you start picking at it, it bleeds still. And after a long period of time when its completely healed you have this branding for life. It's as if you're not meant to forget. No matter how far you try to run away from it, it's always there.
Back to the topic. There're many many people fighting for their lives, to live just one more day. I really can't accept Tania killing herself. She didn't exactly elaborate why she's doing it other than her life is miserable, no one understands her and that she sees no meaning in life.
Hello? I think 1/4 of the population feels the same, especially the angsty teens. But is that reason enough really? Yeah different strokes for different folks. Nonetheless, i don't exactly feel any urge to stop nor discourage her. In fact, I'm curious to see how it ends. Even if it means she kills herself.
Cos at the end of the day.. you can't force anyone to do anything. They have to help themselves. No one owes it to you to find meaning in life. I find my life pretty mundane and meaningless now but do I kill myself as a form of protest? No. You go out and find/create/make something out of your life. EVen if it means I'm gonna do the 10001 things everyone does.
Coincidentally, someone asked me what I wanna achieve in my lifetime. Something like that. I have 2 things I would wanna do if I didn't have to worry about money. I've always wanted to be a wedding planner. Cos I love weddings. I really do. Cos it's at that moment that you truly believe you will be happy, you will do your utmost to make sure both of you are happy. It's that look in the groom's eyes when he sees his bride walking down the aisle. It's the smile on the bride's face when she sees her groom waiting at the altar. Epitome of bliss.
Secondly I would take over the Lee Ah Mooi home. I saw a documentary of it when I was little. Like primary school age and I've never forgotten it ever since. I really admire people who can be so selfless. Yeah but i know myself. I'd feel guilty buying LV bags cos it could be put to better use but i'd still go ahead and buy it anyway. =p
Recently i've been thinking a lot bout not flying. But it's not the kind of discontent I felt 2 yrs ago. I'm used to my life now. I appreciate all the finer bits of it and I take the bad with the good. I just wonder how my life would be like in 5 yrs time. Cos.. it's not exactly easy to pan out your life when.. i dunno what it is i really want.
With Shyan it was easy. I know that prolly when my contract expires in 5 yrs and i don't get promoted he'll bug me to quit and have kids. Oh yeah we would have gotten married along the way. Then I'll take care of my kid. Bring him/her out everyday for walks, shopping, classes, pick Daddy up from work and such. Kinda like Ling, Mike and Luke. It's this kind of stability that prodded me along.
I still miss it sometimes.
When I was younger i used to muse bout suicide with Alvin. Cos back then he was always a little depressed. And then it got worse in NS. I've always felt that suicide is for cowards. If you have the courage to kill yourself, hurt like hell and all, then why not do something about it?
I especially pity those who're left behind. I haven't figured if I believe in afterlife but the ones who'll have to bear the brunt after you're long gone are the innocent ones. Those who loved you the most. Do they deserve it? As wilful as I am, having always said it's MY life, I do acknowledge that my life is intertwined with those I love and who loves me.
Which is why even during that period... I thought about suicide but I know i'll never do it. I won't be able to forgive myself if i did. Well that's assuming there's afterlife and all. But sometimes during that period.. I'd wonder who'd miss me after I'm gone besides my family. Yes friends might mourn your death for a while, lovers might think of you sometimes but everyone moves on isn't it?
I admit it's a cliche but time dulls the pain. I don't believe it heals. Okie maybe it does but it leaves a scar. And if you start picking at it, it bleeds still. And after a long period of time when its completely healed you have this branding for life. It's as if you're not meant to forget. No matter how far you try to run away from it, it's always there.
Back to the topic. There're many many people fighting for their lives, to live just one more day. I really can't accept Tania killing herself. She didn't exactly elaborate why she's doing it other than her life is miserable, no one understands her and that she sees no meaning in life.
Hello? I think 1/4 of the population feels the same, especially the angsty teens. But is that reason enough really? Yeah different strokes for different folks. Nonetheless, i don't exactly feel any urge to stop nor discourage her. In fact, I'm curious to see how it ends. Even if it means she kills herself.
Cos at the end of the day.. you can't force anyone to do anything. They have to help themselves. No one owes it to you to find meaning in life. I find my life pretty mundane and meaningless now but do I kill myself as a form of protest? No. You go out and find/create/make something out of your life. EVen if it means I'm gonna do the 10001 things everyone does.
Coincidentally, someone asked me what I wanna achieve in my lifetime. Something like that. I have 2 things I would wanna do if I didn't have to worry about money. I've always wanted to be a wedding planner. Cos I love weddings. I really do. Cos it's at that moment that you truly believe you will be happy, you will do your utmost to make sure both of you are happy. It's that look in the groom's eyes when he sees his bride walking down the aisle. It's the smile on the bride's face when she sees her groom waiting at the altar. Epitome of bliss.
Secondly I would take over the Lee Ah Mooi home. I saw a documentary of it when I was little. Like primary school age and I've never forgotten it ever since. I really admire people who can be so selfless. Yeah but i know myself. I'd feel guilty buying LV bags cos it could be put to better use but i'd still go ahead and buy it anyway. =p
Recently i've been thinking a lot bout not flying. But it's not the kind of discontent I felt 2 yrs ago. I'm used to my life now. I appreciate all the finer bits of it and I take the bad with the good. I just wonder how my life would be like in 5 yrs time. Cos.. it's not exactly easy to pan out your life when.. i dunno what it is i really want.
With Shyan it was easy. I know that prolly when my contract expires in 5 yrs and i don't get promoted he'll bug me to quit and have kids. Oh yeah we would have gotten married along the way. Then I'll take care of my kid. Bring him/her out everyday for walks, shopping, classes, pick Daddy up from work and such. Kinda like Ling, Mike and Luke. It's this kind of stability that prodded me along.
I still miss it sometimes.
Wanton Mee
Yup i made wanton mee. And cos i wanted to make it for him, i made mommy and andrew eat that too for dinner. Wahahaha i don't have any pics though. Forgot to take =p
And i realised that... i haven't cooked in a while. Lemme see.. 3 yrs. Yup.. i haven't used that cute pot i bought at Tangs for 3 yrs. I can still remember Mommy asking why i bought that. And she went and bought another one in another color. Hahaha copycat.
You know how when sometimes.... when things are going well for you... and you feel on top of the world? Like you have everything going for you and nothing can go wrong. That just makes the fall harder. Wait and see.
I believe in karma. I'm not the superstitious sort although i admit i'm curious and i do like to find out. But i promptly forget the things fortune-tellers tell me anyway. Waste of money =p But.. i believe what goes round comes round. I do.
I thought about whether I would still give the disc if eventually he mentions what i wanted to know. He did. So i didn't. I know I'm just prolonging it. But like what Aiai said... no harm. As long as I can control myself.
Yup.. back to the playground.
And i realised that... i haven't cooked in a while. Lemme see.. 3 yrs. Yup.. i haven't used that cute pot i bought at Tangs for 3 yrs. I can still remember Mommy asking why i bought that. And she went and bought another one in another color. Hahaha copycat.
You know how when sometimes.... when things are going well for you... and you feel on top of the world? Like you have everything going for you and nothing can go wrong. That just makes the fall harder. Wait and see.
I believe in karma. I'm not the superstitious sort although i admit i'm curious and i do like to find out. But i promptly forget the things fortune-tellers tell me anyway. Waste of money =p But.. i believe what goes round comes round. I do.
I thought about whether I would still give the disc if eventually he mentions what i wanted to know. He did. So i didn't. I know I'm just prolonging it. But like what Aiai said... no harm. As long as I can control myself.
Yup.. back to the playground.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Cape Town again..
I posted the pics on Flickr so if you wanna check out the photos it's at www.flickr.com/photos/irenechee/
Hmmm not even half of the pics are there simply cos I don't have enough mb for the free account! I think I should get the Flickr Unlimited. Then it'll become my photoblog of everywhere i've been. But hmmm knowing me.. I don't think u'll get to see much photos anyway.
Wait! Cos it's not easy to find kakis to go sightseeing especially when everyone's there for the 101th time or we'd rather go shopping. Oops.. THEY'd rather go shopping i mean. Wahahaha =p
Anyway we went to Table Mountain early in the morning. I must have taken 1001 shots there and of all, these were my favorites. Yes i know u can have only ONE favorite but this is MY blog! =p
Have u ever seen a blue-er sky??
I sat there for quite a long time just.. thinking bout..... and i talked to God.
Table Mountain
After Table Mountain we went to Seal Island. Was nothing to shout about.. Just A LOT of kelp and.. seals on a small little 'island' (basically a couple of humungous rocks together).
Lunch was lobster box at some joint. It was pretty yummy! Well cos one of the gals said the seafood box, which was recommended, was nothing to rave bout. Yup 2 of the girls have gone on the same tour but not up Table Mt cos visibility was bad. So they said they'll accompany me again. So sweet!! Hmm in total we had 1 Capt, 2 FOs, my LSS, 4 FSSes including me and my ah boy GS.
Then we went wine-tasting and i lugged back 4 bottles of Muscat from Constantia. They're even sweeter than my fave Ice Wine! It was like drinking liquid honey hehe.
Then we stopped at a small mini-mart and bought mangoes! They were tiny but smelled absolutely divine! I bought 3 bags of them. Super duper heavy. Luckily Marcus carried them for me and ah boy carried my wine so i continued snapping pics wahahaha. =p
Then we went to Cape of Good Hope. I was hoping to see the meeting of currents but apparantly that's several nautical miles away so too bad. BUT the coastline there was gorgeous! And i snapped so many pics of pebbles and rocks. I love pebbles and rocks. Do you realise they're as unique as DNA? You can't find any 2 that are alike. I like shells too. I used to comb the beach looking for the matching half. =o)
At Cape of Good Hope
I wanted to wade out there and sit all day...
Last stop was jackass penguins at Boulders Bay. I must admit that by this time I was pretty damn tired. And in a foul mood cos.... I thought bout certain things and made decisions that weren't easy but were slighted. So.. wasn't feeling too good. The path down to the penguins was a really long inclined road. As we walked down the path, i had a lot of things on my mind that I was struggling with, even though i told God i'll leave it in His hands. I almost stumbled on something, looked up and saw this:
It seemed as if He was trying to tell me something.
Then... i saw these.
Just as everyone started exclaiming "so cute!" our guide had to remind me. That penguins mate for life. At that moment, I felt like someone slapped me.
Sigh i need to wake up.
p/s: Aiai i will change the font color. I remember! I just need some time hehe =o)
Hmmm not even half of the pics are there simply cos I don't have enough mb for the free account! I think I should get the Flickr Unlimited. Then it'll become my photoblog of everywhere i've been. But hmmm knowing me.. I don't think u'll get to see much photos anyway.
Wait! Cos it's not easy to find kakis to go sightseeing especially when everyone's there for the 101th time or we'd rather go shopping. Oops.. THEY'd rather go shopping i mean. Wahahaha =p
Anyway we went to Table Mountain early in the morning. I must have taken 1001 shots there and of all, these were my favorites. Yes i know u can have only ONE favorite but this is MY blog! =p
Have u ever seen a blue-er sky??
I sat there for quite a long time just.. thinking bout..... and i talked to God.
Table Mountain
After Table Mountain we went to Seal Island. Was nothing to shout about.. Just A LOT of kelp and.. seals on a small little 'island' (basically a couple of humungous rocks together).
Lunch was lobster box at some joint. It was pretty yummy! Well cos one of the gals said the seafood box, which was recommended, was nothing to rave bout. Yup 2 of the girls have gone on the same tour but not up Table Mt cos visibility was bad. So they said they'll accompany me again. So sweet!! Hmm in total we had 1 Capt, 2 FOs, my LSS, 4 FSSes including me and my ah boy GS.
Then we went wine-tasting and i lugged back 4 bottles of Muscat from Constantia. They're even sweeter than my fave Ice Wine! It was like drinking liquid honey hehe.
Then we stopped at a small mini-mart and bought mangoes! They were tiny but smelled absolutely divine! I bought 3 bags of them. Super duper heavy. Luckily Marcus carried them for me and ah boy carried my wine so i continued snapping pics wahahaha. =p
Then we went to Cape of Good Hope. I was hoping to see the meeting of currents but apparantly that's several nautical miles away so too bad. BUT the coastline there was gorgeous! And i snapped so many pics of pebbles and rocks. I love pebbles and rocks. Do you realise they're as unique as DNA? You can't find any 2 that are alike. I like shells too. I used to comb the beach looking for the matching half. =o)
At Cape of Good Hope
I wanted to wade out there and sit all day...
Last stop was jackass penguins at Boulders Bay. I must admit that by this time I was pretty damn tired. And in a foul mood cos.... I thought bout certain things and made decisions that weren't easy but were slighted. So.. wasn't feeling too good. The path down to the penguins was a really long inclined road. As we walked down the path, i had a lot of things on my mind that I was struggling with, even though i told God i'll leave it in His hands. I almost stumbled on something, looked up and saw this:
It seemed as if He was trying to tell me something.
Then... i saw these.
Just as everyone started exclaiming "so cute!" our guide had to remind me. That penguins mate for life. At that moment, I felt like someone slapped me.
Sigh i need to wake up.
p/s: Aiai i will change the font color. I remember! I just need some time hehe =o)
Saturday, March 1, 2008
For You
I thought I could just peacefully forget bout the whole episode. When i saw your message after i landed I was enraged. For the first time.
Whether it's fair or not it's for me to decide. Cos i'm the one making the sacrifice. I'm the one who has to bear with it. And despite me telling you i'm willing to do it.. you turn around and tell me this kinda noble, bigger man thing.
You just sound like you're trying to justify yourself. U know something? If u'd appeared at the airport I would have been willing to do anything. But i know you wouldn't. Even without your sms saying you won't. But what made me even more mad was that you still expected me to go to u. Hello? Who do you take me for?
I'm utterly disappointed.
我们到旧地重游 收拾那些感动
现在牵手处分手 让回忆变朋友
落叶会记得大树的执着
在离开以后
我们背对背靠拢 数到十往前走
约好别回头别挽留 让爱多点洒脱
很多话哽在喉咙说不说心都会痛
忽然你我都掉头
跑进彼此的怀中
爱情结束我和你抱着哭
四行泪洗出两条对的路
爱更加清楚 不要谁变成包袱
才放手 祝福
爱情结束我和你抱着哭
最后拥抱心懂心的无助
爱若曾付出 会深深被心记住
伤痕是礼物
没有照顾好承诺 我想是我的错
感觉像冰块融化了 感情无法挽救
少了我前呼后拥 你会难免寂寞
我同样也要承受 这段爱写下的错
爱情结束我和你抱着哭
四行泪洗出两条对的路
爱更加清楚 不要谁变成包袱
才放手祝 福爱
情结束我和你抱着哭
最后拥抱心懂心的无助
爱若曾付出 会深深被心记住
伤痕是礼物
不要怕孤独 回忆中有我同住
远远的守护
Whether it's fair or not it's for me to decide. Cos i'm the one making the sacrifice. I'm the one who has to bear with it. And despite me telling you i'm willing to do it.. you turn around and tell me this kinda noble, bigger man thing.
You just sound like you're trying to justify yourself. U know something? If u'd appeared at the airport I would have been willing to do anything. But i know you wouldn't. Even without your sms saying you won't. But what made me even more mad was that you still expected me to go to u. Hello? Who do you take me for?
I'm utterly disappointed.
我们到旧地重游 收拾那些感动
现在牵手处分手 让回忆变朋友
落叶会记得大树的执着
在离开以后
我们背对背靠拢 数到十往前走
约好别回头别挽留 让爱多点洒脱
很多话哽在喉咙说不说心都会痛
忽然你我都掉头
跑进彼此的怀中
爱情结束我和你抱着哭
四行泪洗出两条对的路
爱更加清楚 不要谁变成包袱
才放手 祝福
爱情结束我和你抱着哭
最后拥抱心懂心的无助
爱若曾付出 会深深被心记住
伤痕是礼物
没有照顾好承诺 我想是我的错
感觉像冰块融化了 感情无法挽救
少了我前呼后拥 你会难免寂寞
我同样也要承受 这段爱写下的错
爱情结束我和你抱着哭
四行泪洗出两条对的路
爱更加清楚 不要谁变成包袱
才放手祝 福爱
情结束我和你抱着哭
最后拥抱心懂心的无助
爱若曾付出 会深深被心记住
伤痕是礼物
不要怕孤独 回忆中有我同住
远远的守护
Cape Town
Had the opportunity to work with a very nice CS on the flight. It's really wonderful to work with people like that. They inspire you to work harder and better simply becos they themselves are.
Crew on this flight were mostly all very nice. CS gave me my best check ever so far. B2 was a junior gal too and he practically did all the galley work for her. We were laughing at how he's CS/B2 and she's B7 wahaha.
Funnily enough.. on the way up during the lull period he started talking to me and wanted to intro guys to me. Somehow or other, all the guys who think i'm nice are 1) attached or 2) married. He even wanted to matchmake me and the FOs haha.
He told me, when giving me the check report that he requested for me to work fwd on the way back again cos he likes working with me. And i tink he meant that genuinely. I really took it as a compliment. Never once did he try to be funny or whatsoever. And i enjoy working with him too. At times like this.. i love my job. I have nice colleagues that make a sucky flight better.. And great company for sightseeing after work. What more can I ask for?
Crew on this flight were mostly all very nice. CS gave me my best check ever so far. B2 was a junior gal too and he practically did all the galley work for her. We were laughing at how he's CS/B2 and she's B7 wahaha.
Funnily enough.. on the way up during the lull period he started talking to me and wanted to intro guys to me. Somehow or other, all the guys who think i'm nice are 1) attached or 2) married. He even wanted to matchmake me and the FOs haha.
He told me, when giving me the check report that he requested for me to work fwd on the way back again cos he likes working with me. And i tink he meant that genuinely. I really took it as a compliment. Never once did he try to be funny or whatsoever. And i enjoy working with him too. At times like this.. i love my job. I have nice colleagues that make a sucky flight better.. And great company for sightseeing after work. What more can I ask for?
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