Effort

Lately this word keeps popping into my mind a lot.

U know how since young, our parents, teachers, elders always used to say that well even if u failed, at least u tried your best? When i was younger i used to go like.. Precisely cos i tried my best and i still didn't get/win/complete it, it sucks even more.

And from then on.. I guess I never did try hard enough. Maybe i never had to. I'm lucky in that sense. For almost my entire life I always had the right people helping me at the right time. Peope that kept me out of trouble, people that helped me when I was in trouble. Never had to work to keep myself through school or things like that which made some of my friends the nice, humble people they are today.

And there's my job. It isn't rocket science. You know how seniors like to say no one is a born stewardess. I agree in that some characters are not suitable for the job but i maintain that anyone can do it. Just like you can train a monkey to fly a plane. All it takes is... effort.

Having said that.. Well you can't expect a miracle at times. Can't think of any offhand example but y6ou know what i mean. And some other times.. the results are not always instant. The rewards not gratifying enough. It might be too little and too late.

In fact I'm amazed at how I can treat you like dirt now and you just keep coming back. That would have never happened. And i'm beginning to see you in a new light. But i'm happy for you. Cos u're finally... putting in effort. And i still believe that ultimately... whether it's me or another person.. i'm still glad... that you did. =0)


On another note.. what i put on my blog seems depressing isn't it? But.. i like putting it down in words before forgetting bout them. Becos i do. And precisely becos i always forget bout how badly I've been treated, it makes sense to blog about it and not get cheated again. So i don't seem guillible right aiai? Hahaha...