Taipei

Am rotting in the hotel room now. Standby Day 1. Christy was supposed to bring me out but she cancelled cos she has other things to do. So i slept the whole day. Really whole day. Think i just made up for my lack of sleep for this entire trip.

Sometimes i wonder... How does something die off before it even starts? How do you resolve differences in timings in a relationship? Joon intro this fss Lina to me. We were doing nails (yes even in taipei. don't laugh.) and she was saying she's an early bird but the bf sleeps till late afternoon always. Then... in the meantime what does she do?

Does physical time together really mean a lot? How out your relationship? Have u ever had a long distance one? I remember in the past... esp in Dubai.. my Korean buddy used to say that if her guy is not around then there's no point them being tog. At that time i didn't agree but slowly I saw what she meant.

Nobody believes that I like having my bf around. Haha don't laugh. I do you know. Just not to the extent that I can't meet my friends or do my own stuff. But.. whenever I wake up i will naturally think bout what he's doing. So does that make me clingy?

My LS on this flight is an incredibly nice person. Super patient, considerate, humble and very kind-hearted! And he reminds me of Jeremy haha. I should take a pic and show u aiai. Same height, facial features and same pattern!! And i got to know that my CSS's ex husand was my OBS instructor. So coincidental cos we were quite close after my course for a while. I remember seeing his wife's pic but it never really registered.

Actually.. i'm tired. 11 days is really long. But i enjoyed myself and i'm dreading to go home. Cos... i think too much. I'm too impulsive. I do things i shouldn't and regret afterwards. At least when i'm physically away i can't do anything. When my hp doesn't work in LAX i can kid myself into believing u couldnt contact me. Instead of you wouldn't... just like now.

I submitted the request to Control. No reply yet. In fact the first time i typed the email i accidentally closed the entire thing. So i had to do it at a later time again. Was wondering if i should. Well.. if it's approved I will just go about it as per normal. Since i already said.. that you're nothing like the person i thought i knew.

Time to shower and wash away negative thoughts.