Awakening

I told u your promises are not reliable anymore. U've just proven me right again. U always have 1001 EXCUSES.

And as always.. even though you refuse to admit it... I always pale in comparison with her in terms of importance. U're always so much more willing to hurt me.

I accept it.

Anyway.. do you guys realise how difficult it is to get drunk when you want to.... very much? We just went ktv. It's 5.15am now and me and my gs shared 4 jugs of Taiwan beer. 4 freaking jugs and i'm still not drunk. I think i went to the toilet like more than 6 times. We're gonna shower and continue.

Deep down i knew you couldn't do it. Except that you kept saying you could and would. Maybe it's the best this way.

Somehow i sang really well tonight. Dunno why. Maybe it's the beer lol. I need to shower n go for round 2 at the gs's room le. I just feel... numb. Maybe it's all for the best. I relly really hope so. When i saw the sms i was so sad. My gs consoled me jokingly w/o knowing the true course. That he hit the nail on the head.

I.... wont change away the ADL. U can if u want to. I'll just take it that i don't know you cos... in reality... i don't think i ever did anyway..