I Don't Deserve This

Don't sms me. She checks. I miss you too. Will be back soon.


Should i actually be happy that u even msged? Why do you care? Is it so hard that you've fallen for someone else amidst all your other problems as a couple?

Usually my instincts are seldom wrong. You say you care but do not love. Caring is not like that. I can care for a person but i don't restrict/limit/oppress myself to care for that person i claim i don't love anymore while hurting myself and the other person that i claim i love. It's not like that. And it shouldn't be.

Somehow there're still a lot of things i don't get about this situation. Either u're deluding yourself or you're not completely honest with me. But then again you keep claiming you have nothing to hide from me. So what is it?

Responsibility? Guilt? U gonna carry her and hold her hand all the way? At some point in time we have to grow up. Help ourselves.

You can buy me all the LVs and Tiffanys in the world and it's not gonna make a difference. 4 more days till u come back, 25 more days for you to settle. I'm keeping my side of the bargain.

Melody said I should stop throwing everything into a relationship or a person till i'm really sure. Well i can't. I have to do that if i allow a person to get close to me. I can't juggle and see who comes out topdog. I can't. Unfortunately it really is all or nothing.


There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I dont show it show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know know it

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never