Hawaii

I've always wanted to go there on my honeymoon. Since i was a little girl i always imagine tanned people with straw skirts and the beaches and how i'd like to go or pick up surfing there. Just lazing on the beach with my huge shades and pina colada and of cos my beloved new hubby.

Now.. yeah my beloved is going to Hawaii but he's not my hubby and well he's not going with me. And he's on matrimonial leave. My heart chilled when i heard his holiday plans. He said he didn't wanna tell me cos I'd be angry. I'm not angry. Just that my heart is bleeding.

I seriously dunno how much more i can take.

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