Depressing

Well it all started with meeting the gang on Friday night. I met up with SHyan and he kinda half-cajoled half-forced me to go have dinner with them too. Them comprising of Karine, Angel, Lionel, Melissa, Nigel, Pika. Only 1 word to describe... AWKWARD.

I'm the most surprised and disappointed with Angel's reaction. She totally didn't look at me throughtout the night. And only Lionel, Mel and Nigel actually talked to me. Well Karine did too actually. Maybe i should be lucky Callie's not there. Well if she were i wouldn't have gone in the 1st place! All in all.. I can only say i tried. My best. I'm washing my hands off them and frankly... after so long.. i don't feel much of a loss anymore.

Next blessing-in-disguise thing. Well since i'm the most junior non-probationary crew, I was super slack for the cgk n/s. Until IFS gave choice of work position and I was left with no choice. Hence my 1st jcl solo began. Chief was nice... as long as the rest of the crew. Okie i wasn't very blur but then again it's cgk. Easy peasy. J4 up, J3 back. Guess i'm lucky... 308 tmrw. I hope my luck runs till then.

And then... when i was in cgk, i got a couple of... @$!^&%#(*)*^%$&#@ smses from HxxxxxN. Go figure...

Him: Hi Irene... HxxxxxN here. I changed my no... But I miss u...
Me: =) I noe u're doing fine and that's good enough for me.
Him: I only wanted to say that I was only kidding when i said i missed you haha because i realised that i could have lost karen over you. And i would have been the big joke. I'm so glad that i'm out of it. Good luck and goodbye.
Me: Hmmm well that was unnecessary. Since i assume you changed your no to get me out of ur life. Nevertheless i'm glad you made the right choice. U take care.

*And then i fell asleep. I only realised he still replied the next morning*

Him: Yeah. But i felt the strong need to tell you that's all. And this isn't even my number. Bye.

I didn't know whether to laugh or what. Just shook my head. I mean.. what's up man. Okie well if you somehow have my blog address and you're reading this, lemme say this once and for all. From the bottom of my heart, I'm glad that u feel u've made the right choice. We prolly wouldn't have been good together anyway. I don't have ur number in my phone. I deleted it long ago and frankly don't remember it anymore. I've moved on and so have you. If at some point in time you still feel the strong urge to humiliate/ridicule me then i'd feel sad for you. Obviously it's bugging you more than it bugs me. I know that Karen has been spreading things about me and i'm very proud to let u know that i haven't. I could have said nasty things too but well what's the point. I'm not being noble here, just practical. Don't see what good it'll do me nor you or her. If you don't believe me i'm cool with it too. Cos I know and God knows i'm telling the truth. I still visit her blog sometimes and i'm glad you guys are happy and working things out. It takes losing something to make you treasure it i guess. Nevertheless i still choose to believe maybe you're drunk when u sent those msgs or it wasn't u or sthg like that. I will only remember the good and not the bad. So chill okie? =)

Regardless... life still goes on. Signed another facial package today wahaha. Big big big hole in pocket. And i went for tea with Mommy. I miss my baby but I know it's sunday so... and u're most prolly very tired. So am not gonna disturb ya so u have a good rest yeah. =)

And I love the new song I posted. =)