Exhausted

Just as i posted my last post... He smsed me. Asked me not to go mahjong or party only can go supper. All of a sudden i feel really exhausted. Maybe its fatigue or lack of restful sleep or... I dunno.

I feel really tired. Yesterday something srtuck me. We as Singaporeans are never really specific when we speak in mandarin. Yesterday my massaue (spelling??) said: Ni hen kun le (You look sleepy) and i replied yeah i'm tired (lei). Seem like we use 'lei' for everything.

But yeah back to topic.. I'm really tired. Tired of trying so hard, tired of always waiting. Waiting for a call, sms, waiting for you to squeeze time for me. Waiting for pple to reply me for cof, waiting... just waiting.

Come to a point whereby i just wanna throw up my hands and say i give up. But i know the next minute.. the next second as long as u call me or talk to me or pacify me then i'll be willing to let it go and try again.

I really don't wish to be the one being abandoned at the very end. ='(