HKG-SFO 02-09 April

I swear doing SQ2 is not good for my bank account AT ALL. I spent like almost 2k this trip. *SssSsSShHhhhHhh*

Was trying to take pics of all the stuff i bought. Then realised the pics don't do my clothes justice so.. scratch that. It all started with my lemming to switch to SKII skincare after the facial at Raffles City made me realise hey! I'm not sensitive to the products anymore.

Add to that a 20% discount at DFS and I'm sold. I bought Facial Treatment Essence, Facial Treatment Clear Lotion, Basic Trial Set, Skin Rebooster, Aqua Physics moisturiser, Repair C and Signs Treatment Totality (Mommy's birthday pressie) and they all set me back $7XX. Yeah.. so even before i started work i was in deficit of bout 800 bucks. =p

Shyan asked me what did i buy and i started counting:
3 tops from Causeway Bay and 1 pair of shorts plus many SKII masks in HKG
1 pair of jeans and 2 tops from American Eagle
2 tops and 2 pairs of shorts from Old Navy
8 pairs of thongs and 6 bottles of bodycare stuff from Victoria Secrets
2 tops from Bebe
1 top from Guess
1 cutsie jacket with matching puppet gloves from Paul Frank
1 top and 1 boxsie from Uniqlo

Hmmmm not a whole lot right? I forgot to bring my mamasan bag but well I still had space in my cargo bag. *shrugs* And of course I had my dose of Cheesecake Factory and mango dessert. And i found another brand of designer jeans to waste money on. Killah! Their back pockets are so nice! You should go check them out online. Too bad i don't get to do 300er flights or else I can get them in Milan or Rome. Did i say too bad? Maybe it's a blessing in disguise. =p

Been spending like there's no tomorrow. Maybe i don't believe that there's a tomorrow that i'll be looking forward to. Dunno. Been feeling kinda empty recently. Don't know how to put it into words exactly. Which is why i thought of writing my first Chinese blog entry. Cos i saw this tv programme on MSTV (some Macau station) which had 2 male celebrity guests talking bout their most memorable and unforgettable relationships.

They had this female guest writer and she sorta doubles up as a psychoanalyst of their character and experiences. And it was spine-tingling how she hit their emotions spot on when they themselves couldn't express it. Amazing. I wish i could be like that. Sometimes i feel that.. adopting other people's problems makes your own seem less significant. But of cos the side effects are hazardous. You kinda double your problems. It works like gambling. Double or nothing. Haha. Okie.... out of point.

My PC isn't equipped with the hanyu pinyin software though. Weird. I thought i downloaded it aeons ago. Prolly have to use my cute little lappie. There were some things she advised the celebrities that hit me as... truths of life. You know sometimes.. somehow.. even though you know certain things but reality often blurs them up? Like.. it all depends on which angle you look at it?

Take the dotted lines on the road for example. I forgot what their official name is but let's just call them dotted lines for now! If u stand vertical, looking at them from a 12 o'clock position, it looks like a straight continuous line isn't it? But it isn't! It's a broken, dotted line. So when people tell you 'things are not what you perceive them to be' tell them to stuff it! Cos that's why it's called a perception. Becos when no one can tell you what it definitely-101% confirm-guarantee-plus-chop is.. then it's up to you to make out what it is.

And you know sthg? Perception is more powerful than the truth. Like Nazis perceived Hitler was bringing them greatness and not creating destruction. Like people on placebos perceive they're getting proper treatment and medication and not sugary pills. And back to what I always preach: If i cannot feel that you love me... does that mean that you don't? It might not. You might love me in your own little way. BUT since i'm on the receiving end, since i don't feel it, can you claim to love me? Effectively?

Okie i'm... rambling. But when i can't sleep i keep thinking bout all these nonsensical n rhetorical stuff. I guess i'm really too free. I want to pick up all my sports again and lose the weight i gained since training school!

Today Va related his experience of how in the past he used to take care of his outward appearance when going out, in public etc and how he couldn't care less now. Gave me an interesting insight. We.. doll up basically either becos 1) we wanna look good for ourselves or 2) for others. But essentially we wanna look good for ourselves cos we feel good and that comes from an external source.

Okie to simplify things.. I told him he stopped simply becos he's not bothered anymore. He doesn't have to look good for other people. Becos he's not looking... Not looking for attention, for chances to try and so on.

Morale of the story is... I just spent 2k looking good for all of you. Don't you feel loved? ;)