Complexities of Life and Love

Have you ever wondered.. Or has it ever happened to you.. Why do people not want you and yet do not wanna let go? Or more specifically.. why do all these guys not wanna be with me and yet do not wanna let me go???

It's so frustrating when this person goes around telling people you're his gf. Then all the guys avoid you like the plague. And the actual fact is that he doesn't even treat you like a close friend. Then when you want him to un-tell everyone he doesn't do it. Then u ask him if he seriously wants to be together he tells you to take things slowly. I'm not even interested in the first place. I'm pissed cos hey u're ruining my good name aren't u? Well and my chances as well wahahaha.

Then there's this other one. Sigh... I dunno wat to say, do or make of him. U say u want me, love me but there's another more important person. Yet day in day out i have to reassure you that it's you i want and love. How many times do you want me to do it? How can you want the best for me, want me to be happy and yet... I dunno wat to say really. You cannot be with me but you can't let me go. You cannot give me what I want but you want me beside you.

Every single night i'm alone but you're not. And then you'll turn around and tell me you should let me find my own happiness. And then i'll have to reassure you again. I'm tired. Really. It's kinda like... I have to give in to you all the time. Make you feel secure etc. But what do I get in return?

Anyway men are all the same. It gets even more ironic when a player tries to warn me off another player. Haha.. I didn't know whether to laugh or scoff. And I dunno whether to laugh or cry when a guy asks me out and then claims that we met there by chance cos he's afraid of the repercussions or rather the wrath of that first person. And i was so pissed when that first person told me this pilot went around exclaiming that i asked him out when i was just politely returning his call and I was with my gfs and he joined us. Arghhhhhh men!

Egoistic, obnoxious, self-centred, swanky bastards! Okok just those that i've had the bad fortune to meet!

Well i've already gotten rid of the withered flowers, dried flowers, potpourri, pictures of still flowers in my room. Someone should share another tip with me!